I was busy, but not truly happy. We have been married for 5 years and have two beautiful children with another on the way, but for the last few months I have been consumed by images of her past relationships entering my mind. What made me mad the most was that she got mad at me and jealous of my past that i let a girl sleep over on my bed while i slept on the floor b4 she was in the picture. Also to appreciate more what happens right now so I have a more vivid memory of it. So my problem isn't that I can't forgive myself for things that have happend but it's that I really miss those things. Why would anyone think a woman could just have and marry any man she desired on earth but chose them??? Acknowledging the memories you've shared together.
First, I want to say I love her so much and have loved her the majority of my life. So it's a huge problem with endings. But the stuff with the past still bothers me. You have always had protected sex with past partners, while she never did. I was oblivious as to what she was going out to do. Wow, you sure seem like a sensitive guy.
I try to keep it out of my mind but sometimes — we still see my brother and his husband a few times a month or so for social occasions since they all have the same friends — the images of what happened that night flood my mind. I love to see the wife is drunk, her being taken away other males and their sperm inseminates it! I don't feel like giving up it's just that going through all this shit after the earlier crap makes life kinda meaningless and mostly lonely. I'm nostalgic in no time. So I got in a relationship with this girl. All those timecapsules with small memories, that are just in my head, make me incredible sad.
A few weeks later, I came home on a frigid late winter night. If you are seeking a relationship of commitment, then relationships like one night stands which sex with no commitment is a threat to that. During that time, we had decent jobs, so we bought a nice house. And I do trust her now. When I can do this I don't think about my past at all.
Regardless, I have such a hard time with it. Well as I agree with what you wrote, I still find it hard to get over what goes through my head. We are both Godly people, fully committed to Christ for almost 3 years. What i'm trying to say, sometimes the memory of the past is way nicer than it actually was. My mind's drowning in old memories than.
Writing these words I start to feel sick at my stomach. For me it might be to late since i messed up and i know i did and i gave up on my purity that i was holding for my soulmate. You comfort her and help her to feel whole and loved. But it still comes over me from time to time. I feel possessive, jealous, and slightly judgmental.
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We were together for six years before we married. So I gave up on eros. She would go shopping for six hours and come home with nothing, or she would go visit a girlfriend and come home late. This is my current reality. Video game art sounds really cool though. And she has not been with anyone since we reconnected.
Hey Justin and James B I totally feel you guys. Love is a complicated thing, it's almost like an avocado. I'm thinking about learning some basics on coding by myself and if that doesn't interest me, I'll stop that and maybe think about other options to work with video games. This woman had a whole involved very active sexual life with her husband for 22 years! I am married to a woman who I adore very much, and it was only after we have gotten engaged did I find out the extent with which one of our acquaintances had gotten with her. Remember that you can also add descriptions to each image.
Her love was so innocent and pure, and I felt so cynical, I felt I didn't deserve her. Would you still be struggling with in the same way about this past event? I read it dozens of time and still have a copy. How does that make sense? And I'm crying my eyes out. I was a virgin and had never had a girlfriend. After a few days she saw how deeply her secret padt hurt me she told me while we were having sex that she had never done anything more than kiss before her fiance. That one was a week before we started dating. This has helped my wife and I enormously! Everything changes and you need to work hard to adapt.